Minggu, 29 Juni 2014

Words and Color in a Page

Everyday feels like a new page.
Sometimes it only contain dull words, but sometimes it can be colorful and contain some drawings.
I know, life is like a wave that have up and down.

It feels only yesterday that someone can feel the excitement and joy.
A thing which she'll never forget for the rest of my life,
A day, when she almost completely let all her energy and inner personality to shine,
which finally made her to almost a really different person that she never been.

The shy & quiet girl turns to be the highlight in the room
The ugly duck turns to a beautiful swan
The loner finally found her friends and be the leader in the group
The follower who turns to be a leader and gain lots of support

However, months have passed..
Seems this person is coming down from her previous condition.
She needs learning to face the real world,
Learning things which will open the gate of knowledge in order to understand the truth.
Also, Unlocking one of the gate in her past and use it again for the second time.

Eventhough this girl always try to find a better way,
but she's stuck in a maze and always coming back to a place.
From being a cheerful girl and thinking positively in finding the right way to get out from the puzzle,
but it turns out that she will feel very down because she realized that she will be trapped in the maze for a long period.

She's not sure whether entering new puzzle could be adventurous and bring happiness to her.
However, she is going to try her best in preparing everything to restart a fresh and happy life in the new place.
Eventhough this place is always calm and quiet, but she always hope all the best youth memories can be found there.

Wish this girl a very good luck.

Minggu, 12 Januari 2014

What is happiness? What is an actual dream?

Today, was like a turning point for me.
Somehow, I knew that my life are blessed.

I have..........
good friends, family, relatives, sibling and even best friends

I do ....
have talents, able to buy various items, having best education, being loved

Even I,,
consult people, considered wise & patient.
In which, people would think that I'm 90% a perfect woman.

I felt something's missing.
I want to be loved by someone.
I want to know when to smile from the deepest of my heart, cry with 'true' tears, and breathe while enjoying every seconds I live.

It's because of my relationship with HIM are getting distant.
It's me who are slowly avoided HIM. 
I was blown by the wave of the world.

I said, that I was strong, capable, and able to do alone.
However, I'm not...
I'm just someone, who is actually weak inside, but try to be strong outside.

Maybe, it's an alarm for me. To wake up from my sleep without a dream.


As for my dream,
I'm getting curious with my own statement, which I'm really sure about it.
What will I pursue in the future?

I wanted to be a fashion director in fashion related company
I wanted those people smiles and laugh while wearing outfit that I made
I wanted to made every pieces with love, finding a butterfly inside someone and carry it out

But, what have I done now?
It seems, that I was too focused in producing effectively
Too focus on the business itself, how to improve and expand it.
Till I forget the most important part

Made the person who wears it feel a different feeling . Wearing it with a smile.
Cause this hands, are actually destined to turn plain items to a pretty 'jewelries'
It only needs pure heart + little hard work

As I've just realized everything today,
since it's a beginning year,
since it will be a different year,
since I wanted to have best memories in this year,

I'm going to pursue my dream, little by little started from this year 
with all my heart and with a REAL motivation

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